I took a big girl pill yesterday and cleaned. my. room. When I say clean, what I also mean is… you guessed is… rearrange! As I was working in the kitchen last night I grinned when Matthew yelled down the stairs to me, You’re crazy! Elijah, always overhearing things said, Mom? Did Dad just say you’re crazy? Yes, son, he did. That is how I clean. I must move things. I even got brave and threw away half of my old cassette tapes. What are those, you ask? Take a look see:
When I was just a bit older than my daughter, I used to record Odyssey episodes from the radio onto cassettes. Then I labeled them, lined them up in order and made a spread sheet of my collection. Hand-written, of course. See, there is a bit of organization deep within me somewhere that hasn’t been zapped by five child-births and the accumulation of clothing, food, and dishes we now produce each day. I’m always on a quest for better organization, more purging, and up-cycling whatever has lived out its original purpose.
I went to bed on a sort of cleaning high. Then, this morning started off with crying and fighting and pee on the floor. My clean room was quickly forgotten and I stormed around like an angry elephant. My tea was warmed up too many times. I got INTERRUPTED while I tried to read my Bible. Imagine. Then before you know it, the mayhem began again at lunchtime. But tucked in these harrowed time slots are moments of joy and beauty within the mess. Jack read me an entire book. This is huge. So proud of him!
While someone annoyed someone else, I kept my voice down, sat the culprit on the step, then we calmly discussed how the situation could have been handled better. This too is huge. Inside I’m a door-slammer and a foot-stomper, so when the outside stays calm, this is a huge victory that I praise God for strengthening me to do!
Betty, though potty-trained for a few months now, had been pooping in her pants a lot. The past few days it’s gone into the potty, not the panties, and she chatters about the treat she will get after she’s done. Two chocolate chips were never better earned! Saving wipes and mommy’s sanity is indeed something to celebrate!
So, though every moment is to be celebrated because we’re alive to breathe it, we often don’t. I think about Boston, and how a few runners were just about to the finish line, on the biggest high of their day, when everything erupted into chaos and horror. Life does that to us. We don’t know what our next moment will bring. We can not act surprised, though when things get dirty and horrible and messed up. In this life, you will have trouble. But take heart, I have overcome the world! (John 16:33) This means that trouble is guaranteed. But something else is for certain as well: Jesus has overcome the world by His death on the cross! He has… it’s already done. Since it’s a finished work, we don’t have to wallow in the darkness, sorrow, and disappointment that comes our way. He is there to calm our voices, steady our minds, and lighten our hearts.
When a day is all wrong and we want a new one, we have to remember we’re only given today. Through Christ, we can have courage and victory, because He already has.