The fact that I’ve warmed up my tea six times in the past four hours is not a good sign. Neither are the blankets, pillows and bowls scattered over the living room floor. Since Monday at 1AM we’ve had three to five kids sick: blazing both ends, fevers and weakness. Right now the count is at five. I’ve never experienced this in my ten years of mommy-hood. Usually one or two at a time, but never all at once and in such an acute, long drawn out fashion. I have been keeping it together pretty well. Until around 10:45, when I realized it is Thursday. Thursday over here means I better not forget to move the van to the other side of the street, or else our city gets an extra Andrew Jackson in their bank account. Ugh. When I ran outside and saw the unhappy yellow slip on my windshield, I burst into tears, sobbing into the steering wheel. Don’t they know I have sick kids and can’t think straight??!! I yelled. Nope. No, they don’t. But my wonderful Heavenly Father does.
He is right here.
But I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. Psalm 73:23
He loves them more than I do. If I was living when Jesus was on this earth, I would have been one of those parents who brought their babies to Him, hoping He would touch them. Luke 18:15-17
He is the Healer.
The Lord supports him on his sickbed; you completely heal him from his illness. Psalm 41:3
He is my strength when I can’t do it anymore.
Assure me with these words: “I am your deliverer!” Psalm 35:3
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you! Don’t be frightened, for I am your God! I strengthen you— yes, I help you— yes, I uphold you with my saving right hand! Isaiah 41:10
So, one step at a time, we get through this trial. There have been so many At Least moments this week. At least I can be home and am not sick and can take care of them. At least we have a working washing machine and beautiful sunny days to hang up wash on the clothes line. At least we have water. At least we are usually healthy! God IS good, even when circumstances are horrible. Just because we’re sick and tired doesn’t mean He took a vacation. Just because I feel worn out, doesn’t mean He is. He actually says that is when His strength is made perfect. Not when everything is hunky dory and the sun is shining. Nope. His strength is perfect when we’re at our weakest, darkest, most vulnerable points in life. That’s when His grace, strength, and glory really shine.
You know, this girl right here can’t handle another day in the hospital ward of my living room. But because I have to, I’m forced to abandon my own strength and say it’s ALL Christ and NONE of me. Hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am. Philippians 4:13
Time for a fresh cup of tea.